Good day to you all! Thanks for stopping by!
I write to you still in the midst of the job search, finished with my graduate program coursework, and busting out my suits and ties for banquet season. I’ve been applying for several jobs, having phone interviews, and campus interviews, and still feeling a lurking sense of anxiety through it all.
The most fascinating parts of this process have been my emotional turmoil as well as the chaotic timelines. To no fault of the schools, there has been no consistency in terms of communication or progress in the process. Some schools are offering jobs (even for jobs that won’t start until August) to people now, while others haven’t even started yet with their searches. It is certainly frustrating but I have been working hard to keep with my good vibes.
In all honesty, what makes this chaos personally stressful is when someone in my cohort gets a job. It is equal parts painful and pleasing. While I am very happy for folks for getting jobs, it almost instantly makes me feel vulnerable about my search. I wonder why I haven’t gotten that call, that email, that offer yet and what is wrong with me for not being them. I can usually calm myself down but there is just this nagging insecurity that I know I am not alone in feeling.
I wanted to wait to write again when I had some good news (in terms of a definitive acceptance of an offer) but I felt like I needed to work more towards that. Leaving out this part of my journey seemed to fly in the face of my authentic vulnerability, so I wanted to write on it briefly. It’s been a hard journey, but it will make the end that much more meaningful when it does come.
Your support is always welcome! Tune back in soon for another episode of my journey. Thanks for listening!